Friday 14 May 2010

Phase 22: Isnt it strange how "SOBER" is an anagram of "BORES"?

It seems peculiar now that I can easily say to people "Oh, I dont drink", yet wouldnt think of saying "Not for me, I am an alcoholic". Why is that?
Is it because the latter causes a degree of uncomfort to the listener. There isnt much in the way of a come back, that would keep up the cheerful tone, without it sounding awkward.
"an alcoholic....?, hmmmm... well,... you dont do things by halves...[wince].", or
"really... alcoholic... mmm..    wine gum?".
It is a bit of a conversation killer, and you can immediately "see" the images flashing into their minds. The association of you, and a drunk; as a drunk. And all the while they picture those images, there is an uncomfortable pregnant pause.
I also find myself wondering who else might have the same condition as me?. As I chat to people and they comment "Oh, I`m not much of a drinker myself," or "doesnt do much for me", I am almost tempted to ask "Why's that?", just to see how "common" alcoholism might be. Then again, would that really help me?. Does the fact that you have a "common" condition lessen the effect?
The only people I believe it would help (or so they think) are those that are trying to pin the cause on something other than their own weakness. Looking for blame anywhere but in the mirror.
I have been looking at the mirror for the past 3 years, and been proud of what I see. Because of the time it takes light to travel from my eyes, to the mirror, back to my brain, and register, I am constantly viewing the past. Albeit a split second. But the past. Therefore the image staring at me must be viewing the future. A sober future.